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thank God.
You are my Savior, my only Savior.
I <3 you!

一直以来, 我还是这么地自大..
总以为, 自己总有着"金钟罩"护着, 永远都不会被伤害到..
可是, 直到前几秒, 我知道 我发现 我自己错了.
自己根本没有想象中的那么坚强.
以为调整好一切心情了, 但却没有.
in the end, it's still hurt!!

花了3个多月的时间 去调整自己

我不想听到这种 表面的理由!
我想听到的是 你最心底的excuse.
why don't you just say that you like Esther, not me!?
everyone in the world knows dy.....
even she knew also! you still want to cover it?
until when?!
yes! I 100% sure that you ARE LYING!

whatever lar.
sienz!!

释放

照理说
当我听到那"消息"时,我应该要伤心的
但是我没有!
反而,忽然觉得一身轻了...

我想
应该是..我对你真的完全放弃了.*失望*
以为你是个好男生...
没想到..你和那些-useless guy-划上同等的线.

幸好
我们没有在一起
不然
现在的我
已经躲在被窝里哭泣
而不是在这里 "大篇文章"
呵呵!

everything is God's plan
God can change everything that he thinks is better for you
BUT you can't change anything that you desire to.

你会没有办法得到你想要的一切in the end
相信我
你会失败的
如果,你的心态是这样

别忘记
girl always is the most sensitive group ever in this world.
everything you do, dun think like... she won't don't know everything, coz you and she are long distance.
if you still have this kind of thought, i can tell you now, YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG!
she will know, just that she choose to not saying out only.

伟大的父母

我
总觉得
老爸老妈送我出国读书
真的是正确的选择

如果
我还在sibu,而没有出国读书
我想...
我是不会感受到家的温暖
家里伟大的力量
更不会知道爸爸妈妈的辛苦和伟大!

今天,
出于好奇
所以,
就问了XX,
为什么他从来没提起过他的爸爸...
(过了很久很久)....
他才说...因为他爸爸在他很小的时候就不在了........
我那时,才清醒~
原来他是来自单亲的家庭...
我只回了一句...
"你的妈妈真伟大!"

接着,
我想起了自己...
觉得自己真的好幸运,好幸福
拥有着一个健康的家庭
而且还是在主的庇佑之下
我真的好幸福...
应该知足了=)

爸,妈!!!
我爱你们!!!!!!!(:

i miss you!T.T

just now
i went to Julia's(one of my housemate) room.
at first, we talked about the religion view
but, don't how we changed our topic to a
Singaporean movie ( 钱不够用)!
when we talked about this movie,
both of us kept saying that we were crying...
and...
this movie made me miss you.....
"ah po" how are you now?
are you getting better now?
do you still remember who am i?
you know what after my brother told me about your current situation..
i really don't dare to face you anymore..
not because of i did something, but because of i don't want cry in front of you and don't want see the screen of you couldn't remember me and cried.............
how i wish i could give all the help to you!
i want God to return back your health to you~
Dear Heavenly Father, do you hear this?
can You take away her Alzheimer's disease?plsT.T
I'm crying out to You, Lord!
You just show the miracle to me, Lord!
Amen.

best friend?

last night, one of my housemate came back from somewhere
she looked very emo...no one know why she like this
until she told us....
when she was telling the story, suddenly she cried...cried...
she felt hurt...
bcoz that girl was very close to her before
and yet whatever she do, she is always scolded by the girl..
or what she get is only the negative response..
her confidence is gone....
i can understand her feeling...
i experienced it as well..
someone told me...
better dun get too close to someone..
bcoz in the end you'll get hurt if that person suddenly changes her or his character...
yup.. might be it's quite true..
seriously, i dunno what did i do wrongly.......
why i need to suffering from it~
i'm tired now..
need more rest..
so..
i just let it keep going on..
i tried my best to pull back the relationship to good timing which we were having before..
but.......
it doesn't work!
alright.....
i dunno how to do and what to do...
whatever...............

Plans

now already 1 plus..
haha, but i'm still awake >.<
my school starts soon, really sad to hear that...
i want holidays! I LOVE HOLIDAYS! even though it is boring...hehe

this morning, i went to Curtin Service..
really cool:)
i received a lot of message from God!
excited with now also...
ya! I know God has His BIG plan for all of us..
the thing we need to do is to trust in Him..
He has the details with Him, but He will never show us the details..
we need go through it by our own-selves..
and
when you are getting better, you will only look at what you have, but not what you have lost...
these really touch me a lot..
coz these are what normally we did in our life..
COOL!!!;)

hope everything here will be fine=)
keep going.. every good thing(:
and get away ... bad thing!!

No title..

Now, i'm sleepy ...
but don't dare to sleep now=(
scare over sleep;(
so sad! today is friday.
it means that next tuesday coming soon>.*a bit crap*

hmm...
don't know why i'm moody now..
even though i know God will give me the Best plan
grrr!!! why i'm still like this V.V
might be i need to change my style...but how???
i don't like the person who promise me anything before he/she confirm can do it....
i don't like the feeling...
or i'm too care about what you are talking to me......
haih...
i hope it won't happen again..
or can say is.. i better don't expect too high first....
>.
better go to take a nap first
if not, the bad emotion never leave me away>.sleep!!sleep!!